Today is a really important day in my life. Right now, I am too tired to even explain. The gist is this - I passed the Advocates on Record (AOR) exam and it feels absolutely great but I am too tired today to even think of the word 'celebrate.'
I thank God, my father and mother, my family & my close knit circle of friends for actively supporting me during the time I prepared for the AOR exam. To be honest, the result came as a real surprise because I'd been working too hard in practicing law than studying it for exams. I thank everyone who supported and prayed for me. Never to forget so I am mentioning it again- God, thank you.
I turned down a really big client because I believed he was guilty of the serious charges against him and there was no provision in law that could save him. Lots of people told me it was a mistake to let him go because he's the 'big fish' types and that even if you knew you can't make a decent man out of him, you could still have represented him and made lots of money and contacts in the process. While I admire lawyers who are able to do that and sleep peacefully, its not what makes me happy at the end of the day, when I look into my son's eyes and want to see a world of wonders there, not one of treachery reflecting back through me. What my father taught me about honesty, I want to pass it as a legacy even if it means letting the big fishes go their way. Their way is not mine. When we began Axess Legal Corp, we knew the road ahead would not be easy because we had taken a big responsibility and risk at one go. There are some things that I will not compromise on - integrity, honesty and openness. I can not justify to myself if I compromise on any of these three things, not even for the sake of money because it is not always about money. Yes, we need it but not to the point of doing things that we can't justify to ourselves at the end of the day. At some point of time, each of us has to do what we believe is the right thing for oneself, isn't it? What do you say?
It was a tiring day. I slept earlier than I planned to. At about 10.30 pm, i guess.
Someone calls me on my cell. Thinking it could be from parents back in Kochi, I took it and then realized it was a client call. The queries were about filing a case relating to tax in Kerala. Okay, friends, don't think that its an attitude problem because frankly, lawyers can't afford to have attitude with their clients but what do you have clients calling up when you are sleepy? Imagine how difficult it would be to relate to taxes at that point or even make sense.
Well, thankfully, years of tax practice saved me. I managed to address the queries and talked to the client properly, appreciating the fact that he believed in my expertise to sort it out. However, after the call, sleep just seemed impossible. Tossing and turning, tossing and turning, then of course, quite fuming...I didnt sleep for quite sometime.
Has this happened to you? How do you deal with it? I guess I could have switched off the cell phone but somewhere, some one may just need my help. Knowing that, I just can't.